Days of my life

I sometimes just shudder to think about the turns my life is taking. The past year has been great and I have discovered myself, the real me, but there are days where I feel I should go back to work. Then there are days when I feel that I should stic to what I love doing.

But then I don't know if I can ever attract the audience I actually want to. But then I feel maybe I'm not doing this right.

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I think I need to get over myself and at least try to start dating. I joined a site a few months ago. But I found just one person who I liked. I messaged him but I never heard back from him. And my ego stops me from sending him another one. Anyways, I am too scared to even put my picture up on any site. Yes, I'm gay and I have low self esteem. Way to go on rejecting the stereotype.

I feel that if people get to know the real me, they will run like hell.Also, I think of myself as a very ugly person. hat's why I'm still a virgin @ 26. Seriously, my life is a big mistake and someone should just put me out of my misery. Or maybe I have o suffer this agony for another few decades. uh-oh.

I'm sp glad no one reads this blog.