Two days ago was my brother's birthday. So we all went and had dinner and had fun. Most of the way coming back, all I could think of was how much I miss having someone by my side.
Okay. Not that I've ever had someone by my side. But it was all I could think about. That was so weird.
I guess what started the thought was that I was joking about some people beating their wives. know, strange sense of humor. So then my Dad said something about me and my non-existent future wife, and then I said that I would never actually have a wife. Then, my brother joked that would you have a husband then? And I said yes. And he thought I was joking, he pretended to freak out and we moved on, joking about other stuff.
So even thought I am yet to even have a first boyfriend, that's all I thought about on the way home. And sent the whole night obsessing about it too.
And most of yesterday.
Damn. I need a project.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Gimme a break
I think I need to go somewhere for a while. Even if it for a few days. I think I need a break from my life.
To go to a place where no one knows my name.
See what it feels like to be alone for once.
Since I've been off for so long I feel stifled in some way. I know it's wrong for me to think that, but I just think I need a break from my life.
I think I need to grow up a little.
Need a break from being me for a few days.
Maybe that's what I need.
I hope I can do that this month.
Otherwise I might just go crazy.
To go to a place where no one knows my name.
See what it feels like to be alone for once.
Since I've been off for so long I feel stifled in some way. I know it's wrong for me to think that, but I just think I need a break from my life.
I think I need to grow up a little.
Need a break from being me for a few days.
Maybe that's what I need.
I hope I can do that this month.
Otherwise I might just go crazy.
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